(MN from Ishikawa Prefecture/Female/20s/Part timer)
My relationship was not in such good terms. I often took it out on my mother, I didn’t know why. I would find faults with things she said or did, get angry and push her into corner. Knowing “This is not the right way”, but I couldn’t help myself.
I didn’t want to admit it, but
I couldn’t stay in good terms not only with my mother but also with my friends.
I was worried all the time.
Compared myself to others, I thought, “How come I can’t make good relationships
like everyone does.” I was depressed about the situation.
As I deepened my learnings, my
first thought was to ask Kami to help
me accept myself for who I am.
Then, I became aware that I wasn’t open minded and accepting at all. I tended
to make assumptions or jump to conclusion: “It’s bothering” or “He or she is that
type of person.” I had so many negative judgements and opinions about people. No
wonder I couldn’t establish good relationships with others.
Since then, I’ve been making
efforts to initiate the talk. At the same time, I’ve been telling my thoughts
and feelings sincerely to the surrounding people.
During the conversation at home with my mother, I get to feel the love of her
who is always supporting me by my side. I can control my feelings and avoid persisting
with my opinions.
Moreover, I’m able to keep comfortable relationships with my friends, whom I
used to feel discouraged to make conversations with.
I’m thankful that the teachings made me aware of my weaknesses, and showed me the path to self-improvement. In this way, I’m able to keep good relationships with others with positive feelings.
I’d like to learn the teachings steadily and improve my personality step by step, to cherish the ties with people around me.