(KF from Yokohama / 60’s Female / Housewife)
Great Change in My Son Thanks to Streaming Learning Program
Watching the streaming learning program sent through the e-mail newsletter with my son is my great pleasure.
My 25-year-old son has severe mental disability. He repeatedly watches “Yuki no Kai” the learning program for the unmarried between 15 and 30 years old. He picked up the words from the teaching and always says “Honest and sincere.” I explained “It means that you can say ‘sorry’ when you are wrong,” and then the words became the key to him. He always reflects his behaviors with the words; asking himself if the act he has done was based on his honesty and sincereness.
That Was Me Who Benefited from The Learning
Since my husband passed away 6 years ago, my son had been suffering from increasing anxiety and anger. Moreover, he is an epileptic. Especially last year when people were under the stress due to COVID-19, he was always irritated and angry. At that time, the great breakthrough had come. His epileptic fits became severe and frequent; several times a day. They got so serious that he constantly developed respiratory arrests and rigidity. That was a moment I realized I had been full of complaints rather than appreciation of having my son.
I used to expect my son to achieve more with his efforts, encouraging him “You can do it” or “Keep it up.” He gets very nervous to meet people, so he can only say hello with all his might when he delivers bread once a week at work. I thought he would do better by being more attached to the work, and paid attention to only what he couldn’t do rather than his best efforts. My excessive desire destressed my son and myself. This awareness brought a great change in my response toward him; I say “You are doing great” when he can smoothly get on the commuter bus in the morning, or “It’s all right. Take it easy” when he can’t. He spends a day in peace when I accept him from the bottom of my heart. I realized that he reflected my mind, and I was the one that caused the problem. I pray to Kami in my every day kigan hoping for my stable and generous mind.
Joy from Being with Kami
He speaks clumsy, but recently told me that he felt relieved to watch the streaming programs and began to mutter the name of Kami. He shows me the gesture of his forefinger sticking up from his head like an antenna, explaining “Connecting!” He must be connecting to Kami to tell all his feelings, because he is much calmer than before.
The more we seek ourselves, the more Kami answers us. I cannot help loving my son who seeks for Kami with his antenna fully connected. I am full of gratitude for the great pleasure to live along with Kami together with my son.